WRECKED MIND

I’m back to tell the reality of my wrecked mind,

It’s hard to tell where the collapse all started,

Should I start from where I lost my love and best friend.

Or where I tried several times to keep standing and yet slip back again,

Or where I try to please others better than myself and jeopardize my happiness,

Or where everything I do doesn’t seem to impress you, 

Or where I have to walk in your footsteps and still mess it up for you, 

Or where I go through things and have to bottle them just as I feel them,

Or where I have to seek calmness in my chaotic mind, 

Or where I just listed an iota of scattered pieces of myself,

Or where I now find it difficult to hold or keep friends,

Or where I start my boring chapter and weirdness,

But I don’t have a say in my compromised life,

Because no one sees me to stop my overwhelming tears, which even breaks my heart the more,

I keep trying everyday , that’s an effort I can’t deny,

Sad as my reality is right now and the being itself,

What’s more?